一亩三分田

 

成绩：今天课程的内容基本上已经掌握，踩油门和放离合器是今天的重点，有三四次没有配合好导致熄火，汽车猛烈拱动，比较惨不忍睹，若要打分是没办法及格的，但基于态度诚恳，勉强及格。明天还要找机会练习一下。

 

 

 

 

 

    飞飞回学校后叔叔终于能够回他久违的屋子了,这也给我提供了近距离了解这个身材魁梧,对人谦恭的北方男人的机会.

     叔叔生于1966,哈尔冰人,再婚,一女儿现留学英国,这是从别人口中得到的关于他的最初信息,由于对北方人天生的敬畏,除了饭局之外我们没有任何交谈,总觉得叔叔为人亲善但距离仍然遥不可及.

     三年来,孩子们不约而同的喊他叔叔.昨天下午叔叔回来,巡视一周后觉得屋子被我们三女生折腾得惨不忍睹,丢下一"你们把自己的东西收拾一下,我晚点让人上来打扫卫生"就走了,作为女生我感到无地自容,心想他肯定生气了.  叔叔晚上有饭局,到凌晨三点多才回来,进门后见我还没睡显然很吃惊"这孩子学习忒刻苦了",孩子,他一直这么喊我们,不论大的小的男的女的他都用这么同一个称呼,十分妥当.五个小时后叔叔起床,见我依然工作着显然更加吃惊,我说我的生物钟倒了,叔叔让我注意身体,然后开始打扫起屋子.我原本以为这样的活叔叔会请楼下的职员或是清洁工操办,没想到他居然自己动手.他把我扔在地上的草稿纸捡起来,把我们油腻的厨房油烟机擦干净,把不用的碗都放进消毒柜,然后开始拖地,清理垃圾,刷皮鞋,我看着他上下忙活的身影觉得异常熟悉.中途许伟上来一次让叔叔接个电话,谦恭的语气中充满了不容置疑的成分,这个男人,社会阅历丰富,有良好的辨别并距离的能力,一棵与粗犷的身形截然相反的细心,喜欢勤奋,乖巧的孩子,今天所拥有的一切势必经过自己的努力,得来不易因此十分珍惜,这种珍惜包括对房子里的每一盏灯每一度电.人交往不喜过深,没有应酬的时候便躺在床上抽烟,看电视,房间整洁,简单,除了一瓶烟草味的香水和某人送的星座杯没有仍何多余的东西,一切恰到好处,晚上若是回家太晚,为了不影响我们休息,打开廊灯后便立即回房,除了生活上的问候便不再与我们亲近,这确实是最明智的做法.

      晚上睡觉前脑海里又浮现叔叔打扫屋子的场景,突然觉得这些熟悉的气息有了确凿的出处,爸爸以前不就是这样的么!

    最近状态似乎不如以前，微积分基本上过掉一遍之后发现 很多题目又不会做了，这是个同遗忘做斗争的过程，于是决定再重新开始一次。我 希望能 赶在暑假强化之前自己能把三门数学全捡起来，但愿能赶的上。

   由于阶段特殊我 必须把自己沉下去，很多短信不能回复，很多人没时间联系，特别对不起老于，对于你半夜的 骚扰我 总不能回应 ～～～～感谢你和盐给我 的 鼓励，一路以来你们总是这样对我孜孜不倦让我感动

  太阳的出现赶走了持续了5个月的阴霾,压抑太久的抑郁终于找到了爆发的途径,开始画皮,购物欲狂飙,买衣服,化妆品,鞋子,可以一整天不吃东西,抽烟,喝咖啡.
  老于说考研就是要把椅子坐凹,我离此不远了.遇见再难的题也可以大义凛然,也许现在具备了加入中国共产党的资格.图书馆里蹿动的人头向我诉说着我战友的勤奋以及竞争的压力,每个人都在奋斗,露台上是偶尔浮上岸吐气的人在抽烟,不说话.是的,当一个人承受极大的压力时是说不出话语的,但是必须找到释放的方式.
   这个季节我又开始了疯狂的购物,已经太久没给自己买任何东西了.物质的东西最适合用来奖赏自己,如果不够累,不够辛苦,那就不配拥有这些能带来满足感的物质.我看着它们,看见我在它们身上花费的价值,因此彻夜不眠变成最天经地义的事情.每个人都经历着煎熬,最终能挺过去的将拥有强大的内心,而在此之前我没有资格动摇.
   那么,折腾完这个奋斗的季节接下来就等着收获吧. 

  由于提前完成任务，现在大家都在准备我却无所事事，虽然每个学期末都这样，但是还是不习惯。

     在老师转身写字的时间，迅速收拾课桌，跑过百人的教室。听到自己的心在畅快地跳动。看不见众人的目光，听不到众人的唏嘘。突然感觉像一只鸟。为一本喜欢的女子写的书。像赶赴一场推迟的盛宴。欢喜挂上嘴角眉梢。     

    早上我发现自行车被偷了。

    我是个经常遭贼光顾的人，因为我用品质良好的东西又没有能力保护它们。当它们还躺在柜台的时候，我一眼辨别出它们，然后买下。可是我没有能力保护它们，于是它们无一幸免地被人带走。

    有些东西很好，但就是不能长久拥有。这是无可奈何的事情。 

    我推进门，蛋糕店的小姐就开始为我介绍各种被我目光触及的月饼。语速快并且跳跃。紧接着她问我想买什么样口味的。我想说我只是进门看看，邂逅到喜欢的就会带走。没有明确的目的。可最终只选择静默的回避。空气中有尴尬的气氛在凝结，我苍茫逃离。听到她机械的说着‘欢迎下次光临’。没有真诚，冰冷，全是敷衍。这个店我将不再涉足。

    有时候，店门口不如放一只能自动感知的玩具布偶。 

    新搬进的公寓是一室一卫的，座北朝南，这垫定了冬季会有的严寒。有木头的大写字台，简单利落的单人床。我在写字台边隔出一块地方作灶台，放上小锅，碗，和各种食材，然后又增置了一只帆布的小衣柜。大部分的时间都是在写字台前度过，抬起头时可以看见大片的芳草和寥落的白色厂房。常年有白晃晃的日光射入房间。即便是夏季也时常能够听见昌北的风在窗外呼啸。有时候晚上能看见空旷的繁星和素净的月亮。

    这里的一切都让我心存感激。

Today in England witchcraft and its more modern incarnation Wicca are pagan religions. Wiccans worship the Gods and spirits of nature. In return for their faith, the spirits grant them the power of magic.

It was this power that first drew Gaylice Karl to Wicca. Now she is studying to become a full-fledged witch.

I like the name witch and I suppose in a way I would like to reclaim it as being a good word and standing for all the things that I believe in.

She has her husband's complete support though he has no interest in witchcraft himself. She knows others will not be so accepting.

I'm very careful about who I tell, I am very careful about who sees my pentacle. There it is. That sits by me and I have a great belief that it should be next to my, my body as opposed to on show. There is a lot of, of prejudice still.

Once a month Gaylice meets with her coven, a group of likeminded witches who bolster one another in their faith. They call themselves the Raven And the Rose.

Hello, Gaylice. Hello

When witches gather in a circle, they believe they can weave stronger magic.

It's a procreation festival.

Tonight will be Gaylice's first time participating in a secret ritual.
Red sandalwood for passion.
It's April 30th. Tomorrow witches all over England celebrate what they call the first day of summer, Beltane. As high priestess of the Raven and the Rose, Genat Alice will lead her coven's Beltane ritual.

We are cooking up incense for Beltane. Making incense is a spell, the different ingredients that go into it like making a cake. You blend them all together and they all have specific jobs within the cake, all the incense in this case, and we will burn that tonight.

On Beltane the coven will thank the Gods for the earth's renewed fertility. For witches only Halloween or Hallows' Eve is more sacred.

We take the energy of the Goddess and God of earth and air and fire and water, the energies of the universe I place within.

With your weather-darkened rites, earth, air, fire and water, find us all as one.

Let nothing impure enter here in. Let no one be present unless they come with an open heart.

Their ritual shows appreciation for the return of summer and renewal. Homage paid, the witches can ask for their gifts from the Gods.

Wisdom. Luck.

Then as with Holy Day celebrations everywhere, it's time for the party to begin. For most in England Beltane is known as May Day, an ancient feast still celebrated widely. Despite the fears, their faith still sparks, which is figuring in May Day festivals across England. The Raven and the Rose coven seizes the opportunity to march proudly through the streets. Their public walk shows that prejudice is beginning to wane and reminds onlookers that the celebration of the earth, the sky and the seasons is humankind's oldest faith.

    再次端盘子.体会不多却很深刻.